Llamalady Poetry

[LadyHitchhiker]

Dear Grief is probably my favorite parody I've written so far... but it's much more like poetry so that's why I stuck it here.

I debated with calling it Dear Grief or Dear Death... I guess I'm trying to fight grief right now more than death, because death is natural... and well grief feels anything but.

The eyes inside the soul.. well those are the eyes of the souls trapped in grief, staring out... I think it's kinda poetic.

[LadyHitchhiker]

Parody of Twilight "My Fight"
Haven't hurt this hard in a long time
I better stop now before I start crying
Go and sing you are my sunshine
I don't want to relive the day of him dying
He's a sight to see (sight to see)
He's good to me (good to me)
But I already lost my baby
He's still listening
And he knows everything
But I already lost my baby
You don't deserve to be lonely
But these dreams I have don't make it all better
Pretty soon you'll find it's the only
Little part of your life to keep us together
I'm nice to you
I guess I'll make it through
But I've already lost my baby
You could make me smile
If you stayed a while
But how long will I dream of you, baby?
Because your candle burned too bright
Well I almost forgot about the fight.
I dream of making you alright
But I'm tired of being down, I got no might.
You're wonderful
And you're beautiful
But I've already lost my baby
And if I went with you
I'd disappoint you too
Well I've already lost my baby
Already lost my baby

Here Comes My Son
Here comes my son, here comes my son
and he says it's all right

Little Linus, you're buried and it's winter
Little Linus, it feels like years since you've been here
Here comes my son, here comes my son
and he says it's all right

Little Linus, think of the smiles you bring to faces
Little Linus, it seems like years since you've been here
Here comes my son, here comes my son
and he says it's all right

Son, son, son, here he comes...
Son, son, son, here he comes...
Son, son, son, here he comes...
Son, son, son, here he comes...
Son, son, son, here he comes...

Little Linus, soon the snow will be slowly melting
Little Linus, it seems like years since flowers have appeared
Here comes my son, here comes my son
and he says it's all right
It's all right

[alinda]

*wipes a sad tear for my friend*

[LadyHitchhiker]

Beauty in Grief (an original poem, no parodying this time for me)
I know I said you could go
but you've visited so much
I know I wasn't ready when I said it so
I yearn for your cry, your touch.
But when I dream
I feel like I'm saying hello and goodbye
I wake up and scream
it's so hard to again say goodbye.
I don't know why you say goodbye so
I say hello.
Hello
the friendliest word that I know.
But when you're gone
I'm not ready for it either
for you to move on..
into the ether.
I am sad when I dream of him
But I am sad when I do not
Giving into him
either way is what I want.
But I see the beauty when I grieve
I see the beauty in the leaves.
I see the beauty that he left inside of me.
The truth is I lied
I'm not ready to say goodbye.
I don't know if I'll ever be ready to say goodbye.

[Jon]

Sometimes it seems like we never are ready to say goodbye despite our words.

[LadyHitchhiker]

She Talks to Angels parody
She Talks to Majel
She never admits to her addiction
Just seeks out company
Yes, she'll tell you he was an orphan
Before he became her family

She keeps her eyes open late at night, now
Don’t wanna sleep unless it’s right
Yeah, she gives a smile when the dreams come
The dream’s gonna make everything alright

Says she talks to Majel,
She calls her out by her name
Oh yeah, she talks to Majel
Says she calls her out by her name

She keeps a whisker in her pocket
And the grief around her neck
Yes, the whisker’s from her little boy
The grief will fade more in time, but not yet

Says she talks to Majel,
Says she knows all her names
Oh yeah, she talks to Majel,
Says she calls her out by name

Says she loves, no cover
Loves more than I’ve seen
Yeah, to her that ain't nothing
But to me, yeah me,
It means everything

She keeps her eyes open late at night, now
Don’t wanna sleep unless it’s right
Yeah, she gives a smile when the dreams come
The dream’s gonna make everything alright

She talks to Majel,
Says she calls her out by her name
Oh yeah-eah-eah, Majel
Calls her out by her name
Oh-ooh-oh-oh Majel
She calls her out by her name
Oh-oh, she talks to Majel
She calls her out
Yeah-eah-eah, she calls her out
Don't you know the kids call her out by her name?

This song is about working through my stuff and wanting my dreams back, and how Majel in her own way tries to make everything right just by crying out "Mom" and she actually says "Mom" when she's not saying MEOW!!!!!! In that volume. LOL

[LadyHitchhiker]

In the Dark (5-16-11)
Love of mine, now that you have died
And left me far behind
I dream of you in the dark
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just us cuddled, just right
Waiting for the hint of a spark

If Heaven and Hell decide
That at least you and I tried
There will be no wait for you in line
And if there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll stay beside you in the dark

In Catholic school I never knew you
Not yet had I been bruised, wasn't yet the lady in black
And I held my love and I waited you see
Eager to find love
and now I can't go back.

If Heaven and Hell decide
That at least you and I tried
There will be no wait for you in line
And if there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll wait to dream with you in the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Michigan to Mississippi
Three vehicles and your body we've worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
'cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest, and the eyes of blue

If Heaven and Hell decide
That at least you and I tried
There will be no wait for you in line

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll always love you in the dark
Then I'll always love you in the dark

[Jean]

You are good, my love. Good.

what I adore about your poems is that they are meant as songs. It is not easy to make a song, not especially one that remains withing the realm of poetry.

[LadyHitchhiker]

I think it's because music is always in my heart. Thank you for your compliments. It means a lot coming from you. You are a connoisseur of the literary world and the literary words!

[LadyHitchhiker]

B.I.T.C.H. penned 10-13-03 by Liz Young

I saw you the other day
you didn't even bother to say hey
you just looked at me like a cow
and now I wonder how
I fell so very hard
like a deck of cards
well now I see you were the wild card
I hadn't planned for [big fat whore]

You Big [BIG!]
Ignorant
Thunderthighed
Cow
Hag
you Big [BIG!]
Ignorant
Thunderthighed
Cow
Hag
Stick your head in a bag
tell me you won't nag
me anymore
and I'll tell you
you're a bigger slut now
than you were before

I saw you the other day
MAN- did you inflate!
and man you look sooo stoned
you wonder why you are alone
you think you've got it hard
well you left me scarred
you think you have a broken heart

You Big [BIG!]
Ignorant
Thunderthighed
Cow
Hag
you Big [BIG!]
Ignorant
Thunderthighed
Cow
Hag
Stick your head in a bag
tell me you won't nag
me anymore
and I'll tell you
you're a bigger slut now
than you were before

I saw you the other day
I think we're better off this way
you were always jealous
but wouldn't admit
your feelings didn't end at friendship
and now I hope you have it hard
I know I didn't see this in the cards
and now you're alone

You Big [BIG!]
Ignorant
Thunderthighed
Cow
Hag
you Big [BIG!]
Ignorant
Thunderthighed
Cow
Hag
Stick your head in a bag
tell me you won't nag
me anymore
and I'll tell you
you're a bigger slut now
than you were before

You wonder why you're alone
no you don't, cause you're too stoned!




The Mike song AKA The Asshole Song (completed 9/14/03 about my emotionally abusive ex-boyfriend)
Let's spend the day together
It's better than promising a forever
I'll purge you from my system.
I'll never want you e'er again.
But it's all a lie I'd be telling myself
to try and finally get over my feelings.
I've loved you for 7 long years
I've shed way too many tears.
I want you in my arms again
I want you to never leave again
BUT YOU'RE A BASTARD
AND YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE
I KNOW YOU DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT ME
YOU JUST WANT MY SEX
YOU JUST WANT MY SEX
MY BEAUTIFUL BREASTS
YOU JUST WANNA NECK
YOU JUST WANT MY SEX
YOU JUST WANT MY SEX
MY BEAUTIFUL BREASTS
YOU JUST WANT TO NECK
You asked me if I loved you -
well, unfortunately I do.
Everytime I think I'm over you,
you have to come over you, don't you?
But it's all a lie
I'd be telling myself
if I finally believed
you'd return my feelings.
I've been craving you for 7 long years
I cried way too many tears
I should be in the arms of other men
I should be kissing other men.
BUT YOU'RE A BASTARD
AND YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE
I KNOW YOU DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT ME
YOU JUST WANT MY SEX
YOU JUST WANT MY SEX
MY BEAUTIFUL BREASTS
YOU JUST WANNA NECK
YOU JUST WANT MY SEX
YOU JUST WANT MY SEX
MY BEAUTIFUL BREASTS
YOU JUST WANT TO NECK
CUZ YOU'RE A BASTARD
AND YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE
A BEAUTIFUL ASSHOLE
A PERFECT ASSHOLE
If I could stop caring I think that I would just do that
If you'd stop staring I might think you'd want me for more than my ass
You think I'll be the solution to all you sexual needs
but honey I've got more important things to feed
than your ego
so you can go
BUT YOU'RE A BASTARD
AND YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE
I KNOW I'VE GOT TO BE OVER YOU
YOU JUST WANT MY SEX
YOU JUST WANT MY SEX
MY BEAUTIFUL BREASTS
YOU JUST WANNA NECK
YOU JUST WANT MY SEX
YOU JUST WANT MY SEX
MY BEAUTIFUL BREASTS
YOU JUST WANT TO NECK
You ask me if I love you
well unfortunately I do
everytime I think I'm over you
you have to come over don't you?

[LadyHitchhiker]

STRONGER WITHOUT YOU - 7/26/03 by Liz Young
Well it turns out that I'm stronger without you in my life
after all you did was sharpen your claws and slash my windpipe
you couldn't handle being there in any which way fashion or shape
and thinking about you makes all the hair stand up on my neck's nape
you were so jealous of everything I did
and now you say you're happy? who do you think you're kid-
ding? you said you'd by my friend for all time
Then you turned around and wouldn't spend with me any of mine.
You pulled away completely, leaving nothing behind but hypocrisy.
Trying to be what your parents want you to be unsuccessfully.
I finally realized how happy I am with my Wally.
He's not jealous and petty, wishing he was me.
He never gets jealous for me being independent and having had the strength to stand on my own two feet.
He doesn't rub in my face how much support he has parentally then complain he doesn't have enough to simply be.
Our love isn't based on jealousy.
Our love is there, solidly.
So it turns out that I'm stronger without you, but that doesn't mean I still don't care.
I guess it just means that we'll not hang out anymore or buy one another underwear.

[LadyHitchhiker]

Light and Dark (5-18-2011)

I wasted eight and a half years with you.
Most of my twenties.
Isn't that enough time to try and help you?
Hasn't that been plenty?!?

After years of oppression
and years of control
I found the depression
and regained my soul.
How strange
to find
that such a change
in my mind
is what I would need
to find the strength to finally be me.

No more of telling me what to do
to tell me everything I do is wrong
of how to clean or how to screw;
From now on I can learn how to be strong.

Now I find love, affirming and real
from people who've always been there
no matter how I feel.
For some reason they still care
despite or because
of who I am
and I find their love.

I thought I knew what love was,
and I gave so much of my self away
I thought I knew what love was,
but despite my delusion, I've found it anyways.

The road still is not one of ease
despite the love I've found
but I can't lie that it doesn't please
me and help me to find ground.

Climbing higher, finding light
and dreaming in the dark
I find the will, the strength to fight
Though on my heart are left the marks.

And once in a while
I feel a smile
that is really me
I can regain me
I can reclaim me
I can be loved for me.


I put the poem about rejecting a friend in favor of Wally directly beside this one, to see the difference in my mind set and yet the similarities... I have to keep in mind who I want to be and what direction I'm going towards.

[LadyHitchhiker]

Moving out, a parody of a lovely Billy Joel song... (5-18-2011)
Wally works in the grocery store
his hobby was to make others feel pain
His wife left a note on the door,
She said,
"Wally, I can't continue to live this way."
Workin' too hard on love can make your
Heart crackcrackcrackcrackcrackcrack
You oughta know right now
Who needs to go home to be attacked?
Or to be told how to spend their money?

And it seems like she lost her mind
"If that's what love's all about
Honey, If that's movin' up then I'm movin' out.
Mmm, I'm movin' out. Ooh-hoo, uh-huh, mmmm"

Her husband is constantly turning up the heat
Complains he doesn't get to see the bartender
He likes to wear his wife's confidence down
On Fairmount Street
Two blocks away from her mother

Yeah and he's complaining that her Chevy ain't a Cadillacacacacacacacac

You oughta know by now
And if he can't lie
Around on his back
He'll say that you didn't remember

And he spends less time on her mind
But if that's what love's all about
"Honey, If that's movin' up then I'm movin' out.
Mmm, I'm movin' out. Ooh-hoo, uh-huh, mmmm"

You should never give a woman a crazy mi-mi-mi-mi-mi-mind
You oughta have grown by now
You can pay her back with some overtime
But you could never pay her enough money.

"And if that's what you have in mind
yeah if that's what you're all about
Good luck movin' up 'cause I'm movin' out.
Mmm, I'm movin' out. Ooh-hoo, uh-huh, mmmm

"I'm movin' out..."

[LadyHitchhiker]

Come Sail Away Parody (5-18-11)

I'm wailing away
Saying goodbye to the black eternity
'Cause I've got to be free
Free to face my life and to be me

He calls me the captain
I'm never bored
We'll fight all the sorrows life has in store
And I'll try, oh Lord, I'll try to parry on

I look and I see
All the painful thoughts in my memory
Some angry, some sad
I think of the lost friends and the dreams I had


I said goodbye to forever
I had to go
Before I had grown jaded, bitter, and old
But we'll try best that we can to parry on

A gathering of Angels from dark tower land
They sang to me this song of hope and they understand!

They said, "Come wail away, come wail away, come wail away with me, yeah
Come wail away, come wail away, come wail away with me
Come wail away, come wail away, come wail away with me baby
Come wail away, come wail away, come wail away with me"

I thought that they were Angels, but to my surprise
We climbed aboard their starship, in the Enterprise!

Singing, come wail away, come wail away, come wail away with me, yeah
Come wail away, come wail away, come wail away with me
Come wail away, come wail away, come wail away with me
Come wail away, come wail away, come wail away with me

Come wail away, come wail away, come wail away with me
Come wail away, come wail away, come wail away with me
Come wail away, come wail away, come wail away with me
Come wail away, come wail away, come wail away with me

(this one's bittersweet... a little silly at the end)

[LadyHitchhiker]

Obladi Oblada (in the key of the original Beatles song) (5-18-11)

Wally works in produce in the market place...
Liz works all over the land
Wally says to Liz, "I'd like to hit your face"
And Liz ducks to miss his punching hand

Ob-la-di, ob-la-da, life goes on, brah!...
Lala how the life goes on...
Ob-la-di, ob-la-da, life goes on, brah!...
Lala how the life goes on.


Wally gets a ride to the grocery store
instead of listening to Liz sing
Yells at wifey if dinner isn't waiting at the door
There go the words and they sure do sting
Ob-la-di, ob-la-da, life goes on, brah!...
Lala how the life goes on...
Ob-la-di, ob-la-da, life goes on, brah!...
Lala how the life goes on.

Eight and a half years the house she grew up in she's back
at with a little white dog running in the yard
And she took with her the cats. (Ha ha ha ha ha)

Grumpy ever after the market place...
No one to fear his big fat hands...
Liz loves to talk on the phone, stays at her mom's place
And in the evening, she still works all over the land
Ob-la-di, ob-la-da, life goes on, brah!...
Lala how the life goes on...
Ob-la-di, ob-la-da, life goes on, brah!...
Lala how the life goes on.


Eight and a half years the house she grew up in she's back
at with a little white dog running in the yard
And she took with her the cats. (Ha ha ha ha ha)

Happy ever after away from that place
Liz still gives everyone a hand
Wally stays at his home and drinks until he loses face
And in the evening, he stays there and gets mad.
Ob-la-di, ob-la-da, life goes on, brah!...
Lala how the life goes on...
Ob-la-di, ob-la-da, life goes on, brah!...
Lala how the life goes on.

[LadyHitchhiker]

Piggly Wiggly (in the tune of Eleanor Rigby) (5-18-2011)

Ah, look at all the angry people.
Ah, look at all the angry people.

Piggly Wiggly picks up the pieces where his life has been,
Was it a dream?
Waits for her to show, waiting to berate her the moment she steps through the door.
And why for?

All the angry people.
Where do they all come from?
All the angry people.
Where do they all belong?

His wife is writing the words of a poem that he will never hear
It's perfectly clear.
look at him working. Drinking at night when there's nobody there.
What does he care?

All the angry people.
Where do they all come from?
All the angry people.
Where do they all belong?

Ah, look at all the angry people.
Ah, look at all the angry people.

Piggly Wiggly died and was cursed for his legacy and his name,
nobody came.
Dear little wifey wiping her hands from the dirt of being his slave.
Now she is brave.

All the angry people.
Where do they all come from?
All the angry people.
Where do they all belong?

[LadyHitchhiker]

It Ends Tonight (5-18-11)

You're slowly
strangling me.
I can't explain it to myself at all.
And all my wants
And all my needs
All I want is love, that is all.

I can't keep breathing
My soul is grieving
for the time I should have left you alone.
A weight is lifted
on the evening
that I finally know.

When love turns into fright
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

My heart's scarred
I fall out of love, into fear again
I can't explain what you won't hear again
The rage appears once again, and then the pain
You look at me with such disdain

I can't keep breathing
My soul is grieving
for the time I should have left you alone.
A weight is lifted
on the evening
that I finally know.

When love turns into fright
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

My heart is tight, I need some light
It's too late for fright
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

You tell people I've lost my mind.
It's better to be alone than to be by your side.
It's my fault you always lie.
It's better that I see everything about me that you despise.

All these hurts locked inside
And you're the only ones I show

When love turns into fright
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.
My heart is tight, I need some light
It's too late for a fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Tonight
Insight
When love turns into fright
It ends tonight.

[LadyHitchhiker]

Mrs. Black (5-18-11)

I see my red head, and I don't want to be Mrs. Black
I want colors in my world, not to be Mrs. Black
I walk by his bag of clothes
If I stay around them, the Blackness will grow.

I see his brand new car, that belongs to Mr. Black
paid with our savings account, and he'll never pay me back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
I go to Econo, and feel it every day.

I look inside myself and see I'm scarred by Mr. Black
I see my red head, and wonder why he'd want Mrs. Black.
Maybe if I work hard enough I can ignore the facts
It's not easy facin' the world when you used to be Mrs. Black.

No more will my green eyes cry from being blue
I could not forsee this happening to me and you.

If I try hard enough I can keep my daughter and my son
We'll laugh together, every mornin' that comes.

I see my red head, and I don't want to be Mrs. Black
I want colors in my world, not to be Mrs. Black
I walk by his bag of clothes
If I stay around them, the Blackness will grow.
Hmm, hmm, hmm,...

I've been tainted, tainted by Mr. Black!
Black as night, black is his soul
I want to see my married named blocked from the sky
I've been tainted, tainted, tainted, tainted by Mr. black
Yeah!

Hmm, hmm, hmm,...

[LadyHitchhiker]

Can't Go to Sleep Without You

I asked you to stay
but your body won't t listen
There's never enough time in the day
My words don't mend
the past that is broken
but when we talk together, I feel it'll all be okay.

Every night I talk to you until it's time to sleep
Thinking of how much you mean to me
And every moment you make less hard.
Let's forget the past

Tell me it's not over tonight
You make me feel that I'm all right
I can't make it without you on the phone at night
I can't go to sleep without you

I dream of your breath, us under my covers
Your voice, that sexy drawl I can't get over
I can't fathom not listening to you every day
We'll have time to talk about what remains unspoken
Our bond grows more each day

Every night I talk to you until it's time to sleep
Thinking of how much you mean to me
And every moment you make less hard.
Let's forget the past

It's not over tonight
You make me feel that I'm all right
I can't make it without you on the phone at night
I can't go to sleep without you


All the things I wanted from love I've never known
Perhaps the worst, is how much time we let go
I'll never let you go

It's not over tonight
You make me feel that I'm all right
I can't make it without you on the phone at night
I can't go to sleep without you

[LadyHitchhiker]

And She Will Be Loved
Beauty queen of 29
She had some trouble with herself
I was always there to help her
We always belonged to someone else.

I'll drive for miles and miles
and wind up at her door
I've dreamed of her so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Talking on the phone at all hours of the day
Look for the girl with the glowing smile
Ask her if she wants to talk a while
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Come show up at my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know my thoughts aren't always pure
But it's you I adore

It's not always dark and light
It's the love in her eyes that moves my along
My love is full and my heart's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Talking on the phone at all hours of the day
Look for the girl with the glowing smile
Ask her if she wants to talk a while
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know when you snuck
out to smoke at the bar
love all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means I love you most of all
I'll be there every time that she falls

[LadyHitchhiker]

Yooper Girl, Shake it For Me (5-21-11)
Hey girl, go on now!
You know you've got everybody lookin'

Got a little boom wherever I go
Gonna open up the doors and turn it up
Gonna stomp my boots in the Northwoods snow
Gonna watch you make me fall in love

Get up on the hood of my daddy's tractor
Up on the tool box, it don't matter
Down on the tailgate
Girl I can't wait
To watch you do your thing

Shake it for the young bucks who like to honk
Shake it from dusk ti' dawn
The DJ spinnin' that Yooper song
C'mon, c'mon, c'mon
Shake it for the bear, shake it for the sheep
Shake it for the trout swimmin' down deep in the creek
For the white tail deer, the wolverines and the squirrels
Shake it to the moon, shake it for me girl

Aw, Yooper girl, shake it for me
Girl, shake it for me
Girl, shake it for me
Yooper girl, shake it for me
Girl, shake it for me
Girl, shake it for me

Sombody's sweet little Catholic child
Put a little music on and watch her get a little wild
Pixie do and a pretty smile
Rope me in from a Yooper mile
So come on over here and get in my arms
Spin me around, show off your charm
Tangle me up with your knitting yarn
Yeah, yeah, yeah


Shake it for the young bucks who like to honk
Shake it from dusk ti' dawn
The DJ spinnin' that Yooper song
C'mon, c'mon, c'mon
Shake it for the bear, shake it for the sheep
Shake it for the trout swimmin' down deep in the creek
For the white tail deer, the wolverines and the squirrels
Shake it to the moon, shake it for me girl

Yooper girl, shake it for me
Girl, shake it for me
Girl, shake it for me
Yooper girl, shake it for me
Girl, shake it for me
Girl, shake it for me

Now dance, like a dandelion
In the woods with the ticks underneath the pines
Yeah, move like the gentlest snow
Feel my love drum down deep down in your toes
All I wanna do is get to holdin' you
And get to knowin' you
And get to showin' you
And get to lovin' you
'Fore the night is through
Baby, you know what to do


Shake it for the young bucks who like to honk
Shake it from dusk ti' dawn
The DJ spinnin' that Yooper song
C'mon, c'mon, c'mon
Shake it for the bear, shake it for the sheep
Shake it for the trout swimmin' down deep in the creek
For the white tail deer, the wolverines and the squirrels
Shake it to the moon, shake it for me girl

Aw, Yooper girl, shake it for me
Girl, shake it for me
Girl, shake it for me
Yooper girl, shake it for me
Girl, shake it for me
Girl, shake it for me

Yooper girl, shake it for me
Girl, shake it for me
Girl, shake it for me
Yooper girl, shake it for me
Girl, shake it for me
Girl, shake it for me

[LadyHitchhiker]

5-22-11: The Rapture of Dreams

The rapture did not take me
For some reason the dreams still shake me
A dream where there is no love for me in anyone's heart
A dream where I am torn apart
From bow to stern
And I wonder in my dream why I never did learn
The lesson, when I awoke, that I am worth nothing.

The dreams pass
They never last
THe panic does subside
But every time the dream comes
I feel I die a bit inside.

90 Years (5-22-11)

Suffering the tears
The darkness of 90 years
Looking for light along the way
Trying to flight along the way

FIghting to be me
Fighting to be loved for me
I start to feel more than half alive
Since I left the one who called me his wife

Then the dreams return
They spurn
Me with their very presence
Drill into my very essence
The panic is there
As thick as the air
When the world is enclosed in fog and mist
My subconscious reminding me that something still is amiss

I am done with the whispers
I will save the whiskered
And pray the dreams don't come to me
That I will be left with no one to
Like me for me
Love me for me
To keep calling my phone
to be left so lonely lonely alone
To not wake up to a furry purry face
to wake up feeling I have been replaced.

Suffering the fears
The bleakness of 90 years
Looking for strength along the way
Trying to fight the length of the day
To find me
To reclaim me
And to be loved finally
Just for being me.

[LadyHitchhiker]

Pon Farr (5-26-11)
My face feel raw, sunburned
from the glow in my cheeks.
I have never yearned
this bad, and it has gone on for weeks.
It has taken me so impossibly long to feel remotely close to feeling this way.
When I don't have to deal with things mundane,
I think of you every possible extra second of the day.
It is something that I cannot feign.

It's probably been close to seven years
since I thought I felt this way.
After so many years of heartbreak and tears
it's great to finally find my way.

Now I know how Spock felt
burning for his mate
when the haze over his eyes fell
blood boiling; it was too much for him to take.

It's a want
from my heart, my body, my soul.
It's my want;
I must summon a semblance of control.
It's a desire for you -
for you to be happy.
This fire for you,
has made my life infinitely less crappy.

I was turned off for so long.
Surviving through each day.
Now you've turned me on,
and I daydream all the day.

I dream of your smile
pressed against mine;
crossing the miles
your body pressed against mine.

I dream of the touch of your skin.
Your breath on me.
I dream of living in
the depth of the love you have for me.

How you've waited, so very long
so patient, so respectful, so wonderful...
It must hurt to long so long.
But still you're patient, respectful, wonderful.

Standing on the stage.
Feeling like a teenager
hormones in full rage
Don't worry, we're not in danger.
Even my fantasies... are always found in monogamy.
I was never turned on
just because of this fire inside me.
I was never turned on
just by a pretty face, you see.
This is the first time I've been turned on,
because someone really likes me for me.
You'll have to excuse me,
if the feelings sometimes overwhelm me.

For now I will love, and live, and work and talk
with sunburned glowing face,
a tingling in my extremities as I walk.
You could never be replaced.

[LadyHitchhiker]

I Will Wait For You (5-29-11)

Pesky miles,
our geographical handicap
the only thing that prevents the smiles
from being fully tapped.

But I will wait for you

So many years you've wanted and waited
(and cared for me)
we were obviously fated
(always there for me)
And I will wait for you.

I have a dream of the future
and thoughts sweet but impure
But just know that I will wait for you
I will always wait for you,
of that I am sure.

You're my hero, my awl
My all, my janitor
You pick me up when I fall,
My captain, my commander

You teach me to love to count electric sheep
and not to hate the night, or fear
because every night before I go to sleep
I hear your sexy drawl in my ear
And every morning I awake
to my alarm going off at six
So that next phone call again I can take
It's something I simply cannot miss.

I see lightning and I think of you
Electricity prickling my arms
It's not as frightening when I think of you
And the photos you take.. your charm...

And yes the world still throws a hook or two
But it'll be okay, as long as I have you.

And just know that I will wait for you.

[Jon]

"Pesky miles,
our geographical handicap
the only thing that prevents the smiles
from being fully tapped."

Great opening...captures the reader...tough to not read on.