Letter to the Unworthy (6-6-11)
Thank you.
For showing me what I don't want for my future.
Thank you.
For showing me how to be more sure.
Thank you.
For showing me what I don't want in a relationship.
Thank you.
For putting me through all that shit.
Thank you.
For teaching me so may lessons, quite valid.
Thank you.
For telling me I wasn't tan enough; too pallid.
Thank you.
For asking me to kill myself when I was stricken by grief.
Thank you
for being your self; for giving me enough reasons to leave.

I won't ever say I was sorry.
I was an excellent wife.
I won't ever say I was sorry
that I ended that part of my life.
I won't ever say I was sorry
for giving my all.
I won't ever say I'm sorry
for loving at all.

I won't say "I'll love again"
because that you didn't take from me.
I never gave up on love completely, and in the end
That's something you'll never take from me.

I'll just say I'm sorry
that you couldn't appreciate what you had.
I'll just say I'm sorry
that you had to be so bad.
I'll just say I'm sorry
for wasting so much love on you
I'll just say I'm sorry
and I won't ever fall again for anyone you.
I won't ever say I'm sorry
for trying as hard as I did
I'm just sorry
it was you that I tried so hard with.

You were a shitty husband;
I was a wonderful wife.
You are so not worth it
You're so not worthy of being in my life.