I finally did it! I completed an entire poem without just saying "screw it" halfway through! Enjoy!
Catharsis
I’ve spotted you out the window
Of my very own decaying ruin,
The formerly prosperous corner store.
And then it happens again.
My disease-ridden neurons
All fire at once,
Short circuiting my delicate mind,
And thus, result in a blackout.
The lights are off, but I’m still home,
In this blackness, devoid of rational thought.
Any attempt at self-control is futile,
Anything goes now.
And so I stand here, still as a stone,
And just as silent.
Contemplating,
Without restraint, without sanity
How I’m going to hurt you today.
I think, when you walk in the door,
I’ll kick you square in the testicles.
And in that split second,
When my foot makes contact with your reproductive organs,
And your beautiful, alabaster skinned and starry eyed face,
Contorts into something horrible,
With your agonized, ear splitting scream,
Amidst that brutal mashing of your genitalia,
And the mass-murder of your potential children,
You will become more than yourself.
You will no longer be
Just another person; that has promised me the world
And then spat in my face.
You will become every person; man, woman, and child
That has ever done me wrong,
That has ever caused me pain,
That has ever pointed a finger and laughed at me,
While my mind was breaking.
And yet,
With every cruel deed that I inflict upon you,
There is never catharsis,
Because those lights always come back on,
And I can see once more.
I can see what I’ve done, and perhaps,
In the deepest, darkest corners of my mind,
There lurks a little remorse.
And then of course, we cross paths again,
And the whole thing starts all over.
So, how did I do for my first shot?