Ahh, so here is my thread to post what has happened to me today.
Thank you for the help, Matthew. I am blind.
so...
As I was coming come late at night with a cab (I had lots of bags) I was watching out of my head. We didn't talk with the driver at all, we were just flying on the road.
As I was watching through the window I saw that for a short glance the driver looked at me and suddenly Roland came to my mind... after Jake's death. When they were going to a hotel with the lady who helped him (I can't remember her name) at that time.
He was looking through the window and the woman could see that he was weeping... I didn't cry or anything but that big silence and distance between us (me and the cab driver) however we sat so close to each other... the driving.. the road... it reminded me at that part so much and I felt how much I liked that moment.
The lady, Roland and Oy in the car... so close to each other still so far away and the woman could see in the window that Roland was crying.
So
damn
beautiful.